Bliss

new years resolution #1: write in my blog more.
nyr #2: find bliss.

i am just beginning to read "eat pray love" and my god, not meaning to sound cocky, but i'd almost thought i'd written it i can relate so incredibly at times. i am 3/4 way through the author's first city of adventure, italy, where she attempts to bathe in pleasure. without sex mind you. :) and...she is teaching me so many beautiful italian words and phrases. why i didnt read this sooner i am not sure.

i highly recommend the read. so far specifically her thoughts on antidepressants, "god", and of how she gives of herself. its a beautiful read. thanks laura.

so, as much as i wish i could currently afford my own year long self finding journey (not to say it wont happen....) i am hoping to find some thngs of myself my past that i lost in this year of oh nine...

so bliss. there are a few reasons this word stands out to me...it simply encompasses something i wish to experience. again. or, maybe for the first time? i found it ironically great that its definition was as simple as it is. i hear obtaining bliss can be so simple...


bliss
Pronunciation: \ˈblis\
Function: noun
Etymology: Middle English blisse, from Old English bliss; akin to Old English blīthe blithe
Date: before 12th century
1 : complete happiness
2 : paradise , heaven

love is acceptance. love is forgiveness.

Main Entry: 1love
Pronunciation: \ˈləv\
Function: noun
Etymology: Middle English, from Old English lufu; akin to Old High German luba love, Old English lēof dear, Latin lubēre, libēre to please
Date: before 12th century
1 a (1): strong affection for another arising out of kinship or personal ties (2): attraction based on sexual desire : affection and tenderness felt by lovers (3): affection based on admiration, benevolence, or common interests b: an assurance of love

2: warm attachment, enthusiasm, or devotion

3 a: the object of attachment, devotion, or admiration b (1): a beloved person : darling —often used as a term of endearment (2)British —used as an informal term of address

4 a: unselfish loyal and benevolent concern for the good of another: as (1): the fatherly concern of God for humankind (2): brotherly concern for others b: a person's adoration of God

5: a god or personification of love

6: an amorous episode : love affair

7: the sexual embrace : copulation

8: a score of zero (as in tennis)

9: capitalized Christian Science : god
— at love : holding one's opponent scoreless in tennis
— in love : inspired by affection

Main Entry: ac·cept
Pronunciation: \ik-ˈsept, ak- also ek-\
Function: verb
Etymology: Middle English, from Anglo-French accepter, from Latin acceptare, frequentative of accipere to receive, from ad- + capere to take — more at heave
Date: 14th century
transitive verb
1 a: to receive willingly b: to be able or designed to take or hold (something applied or added)
2: to give admittance or approval to
3 a: to endure without protest or reaction b: to regard as proper, normal, or inevitable c: to recognize as true : believe
4 a: to make a favorable response to b: to agree to undertake (a responsibility)
5: to assume an obligation to pay ; also : to take in payment
6: to receive (a legislative report) officially
intransitive verb
: to receive favorably something offered —usually used with of
— ac·cept·ing·ly \-ˈsep-tiŋ-lē\ adverb
— ac·cept·ing·ness \-tiŋ-nəs\ noun


Main Entry: for·give
Pronunciation: \fər-ˈgiv, fȯr-\
Function: verb
Inflected Form(s): for·gave \-ˈgāv\ ; for·giv·en \-ˈgi-vən\ ; for·giv·ing
Etymology: Middle English, from Old English forgifan, from for- + gifan to give
Date: before 12th century
transitive verb
1 a: to give up resentment of or claim to requital for b: to grant relief from payment of
2: to cease to feel resentment against (an offender) : pardon
intransitive verb
: to grant forgiveness
synonyms see excuse (hah...)
— for·giv·able \-ˈgi-və-bəl\ adjective
— for·giv·ably \-blē\ adverb
— for·giv·er noun

lyric(s)

probably my greatest love of words is in lyrics. i cannot live without music. i am usually more drawn to a song because of its words than its sound first. sometimes just a single line will catch me and immediately affect me in a very profound way. and only later when i really read through the lyrics do i see how much it relates to my life. yet it seems i find the songs (or they find me...) before the moment arrives. so when it arrives there is already a song that plays in my head to the moment.


here are some favorites. if i had followers they might share theirs too...


favorite all time ever song: the longest time, billy joel
http://www.oldielyrics.com/lyrics/billy_joel/the_longest_time.html


some songs that found me...
one thing, finger eleven http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/fingereleven/onething.html
but honestly, foo fighters http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/foofighters/buthonestly.html
apolgies, grace potter and the nocturnals http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/gracepotterandthenocturnals/apologies.html


some current obsessions:
believe, bravery http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/bravery/believe.html
run, snow patrol http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/snowpatrol/run.html
bleeding love, leona lewis http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/leonalewis/bleedinglove.html




and one that i think is worthy of posting for the intent of this blog...
Say, John Mayer

Take all of your wasted honor
Every little past frustration
Take all of your so-called problems,
Better put 'em in quotations
Say what you need to say [x8]
Walking like a one man army
Fighting with the shadows in your head
Living out the same old moment
Knowing you'd be better off instead,
If you could only . . .
Say what you need to say [x8]
Have no fear for giving in
Have no fear for giving over
You'd better know that in the end
Its better to say too much
Then never say what you need to say again
Even if your hands are shaking
And your faith is broken
Even as the eyes are closing
Do it with a heart wide open
Say what you need to say [x24]



lyrics
One entry found.

Main Entry: 1lyr·ic
Pronunciation: \ˈlir-ik\
Function: noun
Date: 1581
1: a lyric composition ; specifically : a lyric poem2: the words of a song —often used in plural

Open dictionary was funny again today:


scoochie over (verb) : A phrase used to tell someone to move aside in a friendly manner, as when they are in a line squished together or if someone wants to open a space to sit down.
Scoochie over I would like to sit next to you, open some space.
Submitted by: Angela from North Carolina on Nov. 28, 2006 18:08

to blog or not to blog...

i think the most popular blogs are likely the most real or most personal... i am not quite sure the direction this will take...

i'm cautious which is odd for me.

maybe i need to be more cautious?.... or more open?

i also think i need more followers. muuuahhhahhhaahh


blog http://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/blog
One entry found.

Main Entry: blog
Pronunciation: \ˈblȯg, ˈbläg\
Function: noun
Etymology: short for Weblog
Date: 1999
: a Web site that contains an online personal journal with reflections, comments, and often hyperlinks provided by the writer ; also : the contents of such a site
— blog·ger noun
— blog·ging noun

depression

"they" are talking about economical depression on the news a lot. the economy is, depressing, as little as i (chose) to know about it... one of those "too big i dont want to think about it" kind of a things... i will worry about that tomorrow.


but my economical state is depressing. really.


i am very curious about depression. the mental state that is. at what point of "distraught" is one DEPRESSED. mw: by sadness, inactivity, difficulty in thinking and concentration, a significant increase or decrease in appetite and time spent sleeping, feelings of dejection and hopelessness, and sometimes suicidal tendencies c (1): a reduction in activity, amount, quality, or force (2): a lowering of vitality or functional activity 3: a depressed place or part : hollow


i could raise my hand to a few of those! is it amount of time spent as such? or extremity. and who can really compare 2 different people and feel or understand their "state"? isn't it only possible to be a percption based on one's own reality. how do i know if i feel more depressed than you...who can truly judge that?


Main Entry: de·pres·sion
Pronunciation: \di-ˈpre-shən, dē-\
Function: noun
Date: 14th century
1 a: the angular distance of a celestial object below the horizon b: the size of an angle of depression
2: an act of depressing or a state of being depressed: as a: a pressing down : lowering b (1): a state of feeling sad : dejection (2): a psychoneurotic or psychotic disorder marked especially by sadness, inactivity, difficulty in thinking and concentration, a significant increase or decrease in appetite and time spent sleeping, feelings of dejection and hopelessness, and sometimes suicidal tendencies c (1): a reduction in activity, amount, quality, or force (2): a lowering of vitality or functional activity
3: a depressed place or part : hollow
4: low 1b
5: a period of low general economic activity marked especially by rising levels of unemployment

EXTRA: merriam-webster has an "open" dictionary where you can submit slang words. i found this one funny...submitted by: anonymous gastropub
noun
: a pub that features gastronomic cuisine in addition to beer and alcoholic beverages

rock

rock was a simple choice. so many meanings. so many that i love! some that i dont so much...

rock. as in the second of the trio of "word. rock. yo" i am pretty sure i was rock.... but was i word? i wasn't yo. wasi? wow. (if you don't understand that, you likely shouldn't. its an inside joke. but i guess if i never have many followers...ha ha followers....)

rock as in in between that and this fucking hard place. "rock the boat". rock solid. rocks. like the ones we would try to skim in yosemite rivers. skimming (or attempting to even) rocks always makes me feel like a kid! much of yosemite is made of rock...

the obvious music. my first very clear "rock music experience" waas driving to nana and grandads playing billy joel, innocent man. that was first and immediate love. forever love. but like all loves, it hurts sometimes now. there is very rare a feeling like being close up at a show when the band is rockin it, you're hair is rockin, and hopefully, later, something else is a rocking.

have i ever had a "rock"? i have had best friends, and heroes and anchors and solace and peace and easy and mirrors and sisters and lovers, and the ability to just be me... but have i had a rock to depend on. like a chevy? those that should be your first two, sadly, never could be, for very different reasons. but now i, like she, ...if i had a rock, would i even believe in its ability to not roll away or crumble into dust?

if i had a hammer. i'd have used it on your rock paper scissors. i dont get it...

i am surprised by its main entry being a verb merriam. or webster. whoever wrote the defintion of rock. but now that i stopped and think i get that i missed "rocking" as in a baby to sleep. so not where my head is going.

post post edit. picture defintion of rock: aunt kerry and lillie

Main Entry: 1rock (http://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/rock)
Pronunciation: \ˈräk\
Function: verb
Etymology: Middle English rokken, from Old English roccian; akin to Old High German rucken to cause to move
Date: 12th century
transitive verb

1: to move back and forth in or as if in a cradle

2 a: to cause to sway back and forth b (1): to cause to shake violently (2): to daze with or as if with a vigorous blow (3): to astonish or disturb greatly

3: to rouse to excitement (as by performing rock music)

intransitive verb

1: to become moved backward and forward under often violent impact ; also : to move gently back and forth

2: to move forward at a steady pace ; also : to move forward at a high speed

3: to sing, dance to, or play rock music4slang : to be extremely enjoyable, pleasing, or effective
synonyms see shake
— rock the boat : to do something that disturbs the equilibrium of a situation

word

fitting first word i thought....and admittedly an easy way out for today. but, for my love of words, i felt it only right to chose that itself...

http://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/word

Main Entry: 1word
Pronunciation: \ˈwərd\
Function: noun
Etymology: Middle English, from Old English; akin to Old High German wort word, Latin verbum, Greek eirein to say, speak, Hittite weriya- to call, name
Date: before 12th century
1 a: something that is said bplural (1): talk , discourse (2): the text of a vocal musical composition c: a brief remark or conversation
2 a (1): a speech sound or series of speech sounds that symbolizes and communicates a meaning usually without being divisible into smaller units capable of independent use (2): the entire set of linguistic forms produced by combining a single base with various inflectional elements without change in the part of speech elements b (1): a written or printed character or combination of characters representing a spoken word —sometimes used with the first letter of a real or pretended taboo word prefixed as an often humorous euphemism (2): any segment of written or printed discourse ordinarily appearing between spaces or between a space and a punctuation mark c: a number of bytes processed as a unit and conveying a quantum of information in communication and computer work
3: order , command
4 often capitalized a: logos b: gospel 1a c: the expressed or manifested mind and will of God
5 a: news , information b: rumor6: the act of speaking or of making verbal communication
7: saying , proverb
8: promise , declaration
9: a quarrelsome utterance or conversation —usually used in plural
10: a verbal signal : password
11slang —used interjectionally to express agreement
— good word
1: a favorable statement 2: good news
— in a word
: in short
— in so many words
1: in exactly those terms 2: in plain forthright language
— of few words
: not inclined to say more than is necessary : laconic
— of one's word
: that can be relied on to keep a promise —used only after man or woman
— upon my word
: with my assurance : indeed , assuredly

w.o.t.d.

word of the day.

i heart words.

so here i will share my love by defining, both by webster, by me, by you? maybe too...

maybe lyrics. maybe you will be inspired to write a song? i love lyrics.

maybe quotes of the day about words of the day because i love quotes.

maybe i will share why i chose that word that day. maybe not. ha ha

um. that's all i know so fo.

xo
kc