faith slap....

Definition of FAITH

1

a : allegiance to duty or a person : loyaltyb (1) : fidelity to one's promises (2) : sincerity of intentions

2

a (1) : belief and trust in and loyalty to God (2) : belief in the traditional doctrines of a religionb (1) : firm belief in something for which there is no proof(2) : complete trust

3

: something that is believed especially with strong conviction; especially : a system of religious beliefs faith>

— on faith

: without question on faith>

i am a little surprised by the first definition. i just expected the second to be first.... i really like 1 b especially. 

i was not raised with any one religious FAITH. but there was one person i always had faith in growing up, so its something i can comprehend....but that faith never challenged me. like, ever.....

too bad life isn't that easy. and i am learning that faith is something you have to work at. the same way one may "work" at a relationship, if you see that as work. then again, i happen to love, what i do for work. so its definition there alone isn't even negative.....

tests of faith are just that. tests. not pass or fail for life. but if you don't test yourself every so often how do you measure your growth and progress and determine if you're ready to advance?....  

and i guess if you are religious - that "final hour" is like a final exam. come prepared. ;)

fink. this is the thing.

I don't know if you noticed anything different
It's getting dark and it's getting cold and the nights are getting long
I don't know if you even noticed at all
That I'm long gone baby, I'm long gone
And the things that keep us apart keep me alive and
The things that keep me alive keep me alone
This is the thing

I don't know if you notice anything missing
Like the leaves on the trees or my clothes all over the floor
I don't know if you'll even notice at all
Coz I was real quiet when I closed the door
And the things that keep us apart keep me alive and
The things that keep me alive keep me alone

This is the thing

I don't know if you notice anything different
I don't know if you even notice at all
I don't know if you notice anything missing

This Is The Thing
This Is The Thing
This Is The Thing
This Is The Thing

raise your glass!

Right, right, turn off the lights
We're gonna lose our minds tonight
What's the dealio?
I love when it's all too much
5am turn the radio up
Where's the rock 'n roll?

Party crasher, penny snatcher
Call me up if you're a gangsta
Don't be fancy, just get dancy
Why so serious?

So raise your glass if you are wrong
In all the right ways, all my underdogs
We will never be, never be anything but loud
And nitty gritty, dirty little freaks
Won't you come on and come on and
Raise your glass!
Just come on and come on and
Raise your glass!

Slam, slam, oh hot damn
What part of a party don't you understand?
We should just freak out
(Freak out already)
Can't stop, coming in hot
I should be locked up right on the spot
It's so on right now
(It's so fucking on right now)

Party crasher, penny snatcher
Call me up if you're a gangsta
Don't be fizzy, just get dizzy
Why so serious?

So raise your glass if you are wrong
In all the right ways, all my underdogs
We will never be, never be anything but loud
And nitty gritty, dirty little freaks
Won't you come on and come on and
Raise your glass!
Just come on and come on and
Raise your glass!
Won't you come on and come on and
Raise your glass!
Just come on and come on and
Raise your glass!

Oh shit! My glass is empty
That sucks!

So if you're too school for cool
And you're treated like a fool
(You're treated like a fool)
You can choose to let it go
We can always, we can always party on our own

So raise your (oh, fuck)
So raise your glass if you are wrong
In all the right ways, all my underdogs
We will never be, never be anything but loud
And nitty gritty, dirty little freaks

So raise your glass if you are wrong
In all the right ways, all my underdogs
We will never be, never be anything but loud
And nitty gritty, dirty little freaks
Won't you come on and come on and
Raise your glass!
Just come on and come on and
Raise your glass!
Won't you come on and come on and
Raise your glass for me!
Just come on and come on and
Raise your glass for me! 

...pink

a picture paints a thousand words....

thx to lulu for this one

remember

loved the simplicity of these words....found in the program from a beautiful wedding today:

"at the rising of the sun and at its going down, we remember them. when we have joys we yearn to share, we remember them"

sunset at pacific view cemetary

don't play with your food!

so challenging the roomie to a game of cheez-it scrabble later!

october

october....

it hits me like a ton of bricks. i try to pretend/hope its not going to. but it does. (and with that a warning. this leans toward the more personal/raw of writings....)

to most its a pretty great month. oktoberfest (love the k), halloween, pumpkin everything, almost the holidays.... its event season so i am crazy busy at work which i generally like.... but its october. and so far, 6 years later, its still overwhelmingly "the month she died".

some people die in an instant. some people die in a day. they could look back and say "thats the day so and so died". yes, there was a day she died. and actually, i vividly recall the exact instant she died. but really, it was an entire month of hell of watching her slowly and painfully die. there is just no other way around it. for me. yet....

october, by u2, is one of the few songs that the music itself holds a greater impact than the lyrics. the words. in fact for years i loved the song and enjoyed the melody (....huh) alone. i did not even know the words until that year. october, 2004. how was it possible  -  such perfect words to that perfect sound.... it sounds how it feels....

the truth is -  this is one subject i don't think any words could really satisfy....

(please ignore the sorta cheesey but sorta fitting images in the video)



october
and the trees are stripped bare
of all they wear
what do I care
october
and kingdoms rise and kingdoms fall
but You go on
and on 

 and that is love....

our tree. stripped bare. sentinel dome, yosemite.